Baanwra mann dekhne chala ek sapna

Sometimes it just feels like breaking ties from the daily routine, work, people, problems, troubles, everything and spend time the way your hearts want to. I know this sounds like a far cry in today’s fast moving mechanical and concrete world. But believe me the more this mechanical world is encompassing us the more the child inside us is craving to do something out of our very strict defined boundaries.

Most of the times I am so preoccupied in the daily chores, that this child in me has no options but to sob silently in the hope that someday I’ll notice. Yesterday I had some free time in office and so I got a chance to do a rendezvous with the child inside me and then I got to know the weirdest things the child inside me wanted to do.

The first thing is to take a break from work and go to a long holiday. This is not weird though. Mostly people want to go to flashy and fancy places like Paris, Singapore, Vegas etc. And most of the times I am also in that category. But this child in me wants to go to a place close to nature, quiet and lonely. A place where I’ll get a chance to discover myself. A place where I won’t have to think about any problem, personal or professional. A place where no one will be watching me. A place where no one will be questioning me. A place where there is no right or wrong, practical or emotional. A place where I can be just me. A place surrounded by high mountains or deep blue oceans. A place where I can unveil myself, where I can lie naked on white sand or green grass without bothering about people’s stare. A place which will make me feel that heaven is a place on earth.

The second thing is to fall in love. Yes this is weird. I mean falling in love is not something that you would want, it just happens. But the child in me wants me to fall in love. I have always resisted this by saying single by choice. And most of the times I meant it. But I do feel the need of a person in my life who will always be there with me. Who will accept me as I am without being judgemental on my doings. Who will love me for reasons beyond reason. Who will stand by me against all odds. Who will made me believe again that love is so serene and beautiful.

The third thing is to do something breadth taking and adventurous. I have been a not so adventurous person always. And so the child in me wants me to break this shell and explore the wildest possibilities this world has to offer. A point where you can experience how death will feel like without actually dying. Bungee jumping, ice climbing, scuba diving, skydiving, rafting in turbulent rivers, wildlife safaris would be the few ones that I would like to try. I am not very sure how physically toned I am to try all this but I would definitely like to do these once in my lifetime.

The fourth thing is to spend a day of my life like a princess. To spend a day as if there is no tomorrow. A day when things will happen the way I want. A day when I can go to places I only dream of going or at least I cannot afford to go to such places frequently. A day when I can meet people whom I have always admired, but was never been lucky to meet them. A day when I can buy things without looking at how much they cost. A day when everyone will losok at me and say that I want to be like her. This dream of mine exposes a more materialistic side of me. But I believe everyone has this shade in their personalities but most people are not very comfortable in bringing it out.

The fifth thing is to learn how to play a synthesizer. Well this is not something which is unrealistic or weird and I cannot do it. It’s just that I did not do it yet and so the child in me is getting restless.

Well it was a one small day and so unfortunately I had to bring this rendezvous to an end. But it was nice talking to my own self and to know the things that something inside me craves for.
I would like to conclude with the beautiful lyrics of a lovely song...

Baavra mann dekhne chala ek sapna

Baavre se mann ki dekho
Baavri hain baatein
Baavri si dhadkanein hain
Baavri hain saansein
Baavri si karvaton se nindiya tu bhaage
Baavre se nain chaahein
Baavre jharokhon se
Baavre nazaaron ko takna

Baavra mann dekhne chala ek sapna